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Sunday, September 11, 2011

Just For Today

I had one heck of a morning all before 10am.  Missed my exit on the way to work.  Had to deal with silly drama... forgot to pay my meter because of that and got a ticket... Then slammed my already cut hand in the door causing it to burst open yet again.  Needless to say, my day was not off to the best start.  So first I cried for a minute... at work... then decided I needed to pull it together!  I remembered  5 principals of Reiki, which are:

Just for today, I release all worry.
Just for today, I release all anger.
Just for today, I shall earn my living with integrity.
Just for today, I will be kind to every living thing.
Just for today, I will give thanks for all my many blessings.


So I figured just for today, I could do that... Just for today... And tomorrow I could see how I felt and go from there.  You see, I feel like just for a day, I can handle that... And when you start each day with that... one day turns in 2, which turns into a week... etc, until you're perfect... Ha, just kidding, but you get closer to that!  The idea behind this philosophy, is to get people to live in the moment, but for me, it helps me to feel like I can do it, so I can come back to the moment.  I have this little trick I do on the stair machine when I'm getting tired... where I look at how much time I have left and decide that I can do anything for a few minutes.  Fifteen minutes?  That's nothing, I can do anything that long.  This kind of does the same thing for me.  One day?  Ok, I can do anything for one day... even though at many points during that day, I may feel like I can't, I remind myself, "Just one day Laura, that's it!"

So now I feel much better.  I'm enjoying the cool ocean air, listening to the water, and smiling... because after all, I may as well enjoy all of these things while I'm practicing this, since it is for just one day ;)

Today's Silver Lining
"Some day somebody's gonna make you want to, Turn around and say goodbye, Until then baby are you going to let them, Hold you down and make you cry, Don't you know? Don't you know things can change, Things'll go your way, If you hold on for one more day.  Can you hold on for one more day? Things'll go your way, Hold on for one more day." Hold On- by Wilson Phillips

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

What's Going On

So, it seems that things have been a bit messy lately for most people I've talked to, including myself.  Everyone seems to feel a bit of a disconnect, a bit off track or a bit frustrated.  A few people are searching for ways to change, sensing the need for it.  I've heard a few people blame it on Mercury retrograde, because this all started around then... but I can assure you that's not to blame this time.  There is a change going on, a shift... and according to what I've witnessed and been told, a major phase in that shift just happened.  So for those who wish to get a little clarity, here is a brief explanation in Laura talk of what just happened ;) 

The best way I've come up with in words to describe it is by using a yin and yang symbol.  Picture the symbol in your mind.  This is how we all viewed the world.  Things were black and white, but there was no separation.  They all existed as a unit... though we saw good and bad, black and white, right and wrong... they were a part of one whole that our perception could decipher.  We looked at the whole, and saw what we perceived in that moment.  What happened is that the symbol has now separated, so rather than being able to look at this whole, we now see things more as they are, and also the space between them.  So even though the balance is still there between the yin and yang, our perception of it has been heightened and we are now adjusting to that change.  It's like we just zoomed in on the symbol and now we notice a space between the two main parts which we didn't see before.  While it seemed easier to deal with things in the past because we had just this one thing to look at with no awareness of the space between, it will become easier once we adjust to this new awareness and realize that the same space that exists there, is all that exists between us and everything... And that space is actually still a part of what completes the whole.  I know this seems kind of esoteric and hard to understand in words, but as you start to see it in your experience, it makes more sense... kind of :)

It's taking a while for me to really wrap my head around, some days it makes total sense, and others I just want to stop the world and get off for a lil break... but I can already notice a greater understanding and acceptance of this new reality.  So be gentle with yourself, and breathe.  Your breath is the space between your past and your future... it is what keeps you balanced.  It is always happening whether we are trying or not.  It keeps us alive, and yet we rarely worry about if and how we will breathe, because we trust that it will happen.  So as we face this new space, it is good to remember that you can always come to your breath and use it as a reminder that everything necessary for our highest and best good will happen without any worry on our part if we just allow it to.  Just as we participate in breathing without getting frustrated or worried about if it's going the way we planned... we can participate in life and allow it to flow through us, and know that things will come and go, as air does, but the next breath will always be there when we need it... no matter what's going on in the space between :) 

Today's Silver Lining
"25 years of my life and still, Trying to get up that great big hill of hope, For a destination. I realized quickly when I knew I should, That the world was made for this, Brotherhood of man, For whatever that means.  And so I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bed, Just to get it all out, what's in my head
And I, I'm feeling a little peculiar, And so I wake in the morning and I step, Outside and I take deep breath, And I get real high, And I scream to the top of my lungs, 'What's goin' on?"  What's Up- by 4 Non Blondes